Going into the New Year I always pray for a word to represent the upcoming year. This year I got the word "trust". It is not even two months into 2020 and I have had to rely heavily on that word, on trusting God with every circumstance. I have lost a friend, watched my closest friend mourn the loss of the love of her life, watched a family member deal with a mental breakdown and attempted suicide, and we had to cancel our long awaited trip to Florida to stay home and help that person get back on their feet.
Through all of this I have repeated the word trust over and over in my mind and have made the choice each time to do exactly that, to trust that the Lord has a purpose for all of this. I am not saying that I haven't felt sadness or fear. I absolutely have. At times it has felt like life was swirling around me like a cyclone. But bringing the word trust to mind has helped keep me focused and steady, despite the storm. I am so grateful for my word this year!
In my last post I spoke about struggling inwardly to find God's path for me. This past three weeks has taught me a little something about that. I had plans for February, for this new year, but only God's plans will prevail. I can spend all kinds of time fretting over the future, or making plans but none of it may happen. It's such a waste of time and energy to worry about the future. I need to simply be here, in each day, being obedient to God and only then can he make my path straight. I also need to be intentional in remembering how God has provided and carried me in the past.
How easily I seem to forget that!
Last year I spent a fair amount of time being solely focused on "today", but it seems I completely forgot to keep on doing it. I suppose these past two months have been a good reminder to refocus and to love others, to show mercy, to walk humbly with God, and to live each day with intention. And that's exactly what I am going to do today! Do you have trouble staying present daily too? Do you do anything in particular to remind yourself to be focused purely on today? Let's give others who struggle with this too ideas on how to overcome the challenge!
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